at the mall, and by now, I should really know better.
haven't been feeling quite the tower of iron will lately, living here in the heartland of the homegrown extremist, the police state facist, their fear infects me. the insanity offends me, their rules constrain me, I do not feel myself.
I suppose I always knew there would be bad days, but you get to all yr days are bad without the bullets. and thereve been a string of them, struggling ti get a single damn thing done, feeling myself diminish under the weight of time and decay and fear of decay.
and here I am, doing nothing but maintenance, trying tomake our lives acceptably comfortable, simple things like water and heat.
where is the singularity in all these preparations? if its all just collapse and ruin, how can I maintain inspiration? something emergent must be attempted, seeded, dreamt.
otherwise
haven't been feeling quite the tower of iron will lately, living here in the heartland of the homegrown extremist, the police state facist, their fear infects me. the insanity offends me, their rules constrain me, I do not feel myself.
I suppose I always knew there would be bad days, but you get to all yr days are bad without the bullets. and thereve been a string of them, struggling ti get a single damn thing done, feeling myself diminish under the weight of time and decay and fear of decay.
and here I am, doing nothing but maintenance, trying tomake our lives acceptably comfortable, simple things like water and heat.
where is the singularity in all these preparations? if its all just collapse and ruin, how can I maintain inspiration? something emergent must be attempted, seeded, dreamt.
otherwise